10.16.15 Heartbreak and Hope

The first parasha/portion in the Torah, B'reishit, introduces us to God, "The Creator".  This parasha, the second parasha introduces us to God, "The Destroyer".  Apparently, things, meaning human beings, didn't turn out quite how God planned, or more accurately, intended.  The people, all of the people are behaving in very deviant ways.  Everyone is awful! Everyone, except Noah (and his family - innocent by association).  Seems like God is taken off guard by all of this and decides that the world must be destroyed.  Everything in the world that God just created (only one parasha ago) must be completely destroyed.  Everything and everyone, except Noah, his family and animals.  Most of us learned the song "Rise and Shine and Give God Your Glory Glory" where we sang loud and proud, "the animals, they came on, they came on by twosies twosies...elephants and kangaroosies roosie children of the Lord".  It was one of my Phillips family road trip favorites.  We think there were TWO of every animal on the ark with Noah and his family.  But, in fact there were lots more.  7 pairs of every kosher animal and fewer pairs of non-kosher animals. This is really bizarre considering that the laws of kashrut didn't exist yet. But, I digress.  I am way off track now.

Here's me getting back on track.

Humanity cannot get it together.  They are using their free will to lean into evil instead of good.  God cannot take it anymore and tells Noah (because he was "righteous in his generation" - kind of a backhanded compliment) to build an ark and then load it up with his family and the animals.  Noah does exactly what God tells him to do. The next thing we know, there is a terrible flood.  It lasts 40 nights and 40 days. During this time, the entire world is destroyed.  It's almost back to the way things began in the first parasha.  Or at least that's what we think happened. Turns out that once the waters recede the trees regrow, the ocean is replenished and life resumes - only with a lot fewer people.  God says that this will never happen again.  Never again will God destroy the world (with a flood).

Now, I don't know if it is ironic, a coincidence or just a harsh reality check that we are reading Parashat Noah.   After the flood, once Noah and his family and all of the animals are on dry land.  God says that this will never happen again.  Never again will God destroy the world (with a flood).  God kept that promise.  However, it seems like humanity has taken the lead in this regard.  

Every morning I listen to NPR (Yes. I am a sustaining member and you should be too.).  Every morning, I get ready for my day listening to reports of violence, cruelty and hate all over the world.  There are too many places around the world where women, children, men, old and young are being murdered, tortured and raped.  There are too many places around the world where people are being denied the ability to live freely and safely with enough food and water, protective shelter and education.  There are too many places around the world where human life is not valued.  This week Israel is one of those places.  It is heartbreaking to hear about the suffering of any people.  It is heartbreaking because it is wrong and because I feel totally helpless.  When I hear about violence and suffering from Israel, my heartbreak is doubled.  I often say, and truly believe that my while my body was born in the United States, my neshamah, my soul, my essence, was born in Israel.  It's where I feel my fullest.  It's where I breathe deepest.  It's where I am my truest self.  It's impossible to articulate why.  It's just how I feel.  Perhaps it's because when I was eleven and living on Kibbutz, I had my first kiss with Avshalom (lit. "father of peace").  Perhaps because I love the Hebrew language.  You don't just speak Hebrew with your mouth, you use your entire body.   Perhaps because at the same time people are pushing you out of their way, they are saying 'Shabbat Shalom'. Perhaps because it's where watermelon is always perfectly ripe and there is a bakery on every corner.

So, when a week like this last one in Jerusalem happens, my heartbreak is doubled.  

The violence is unbelievable.  I literally cannot believe what I am hearing and what I am reading.  I just cannot believe what is happening.  I cannot believe it is still happening.  What will it take for it to end?  What will it take for people to finally be able to live without fear?

This Torah is not about convincing anyone to choose a side or convincing anyone to think that one side is right and another side is wrong.  It's not even about saying that there are two sides  

This week's Torah is about calling out for the violence and hatred to end.  WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG? Really, why can't we all just get along?  What is it that makes people hate each other so much?  So much that they are willing to cause deep harm to others?  So much that they are willing to murder others?  So much that they are willing to die themselves?  What is it that makes people hate each other so much?  Is it jealousy? Greed? Power?  Brainwashing?

I have no idea.

I have absolutely no idea.

As I stated above, this is not a piece about choosing a side.  This Torah is a plea to honor the other and to show compassion for all living beings.  It is a call to challenge ourselves to put aside whatever "facts" and assumptions, whatever "truths" we might have, and put human life in front.  People deserve to live with dignity and without fear.  This Torah is a call to say ENOUGH!  We won't tolerate violence or hatred - over there - or here.  

Maybe, just maybe, if each of us does one thing to stop violence and inequality, to prevent injustice and hatred, we can get a little closer to that first story of the Torah - the story of the Garden of Eden, the Garden of beauty and perfection.

Every morning I listen to NPR and every morning on my walk to the subway I pass by a church (although I can't really call it a house of God) called "Atlah".  There is a double sided sign in the private courtyard.  Each side is filled with the most hateful statements against Obama, homosexuals, "white gentrifiers" and more.  It seems the goal is to create one statement using as many derogatory terms as possible.  People walk by shocked and horrified.  Tourists take pictures.  For nearly a year I have walked by that sign and although I too am totally outraged, have said nothing.  Enough!  I am going to knock on the door of the church and request that the racist, sexist, homophobic anti President remarks be removed.  

What will you do?  

Here's a reason to hope that "things" can change (although way too slowly).

Written by Adam Cohen (whom I have the privilege and pleasure of calling my step-son).  Thank you Isaac Simon for providing this opportunity and for providing food and dignity to the homeless every week.  


Recently I went on a food run to help the homeless. At first I wasn't too excited to be apart of the run. Sure it is great to help your community but sometimes it can be pretty tedious. I've helped second graders with reading and math, but it was never too enjoyable. However, when I gave out food and clothes to homeless men and women. I felt really happy that I tagged a long for the ride. It is amazing how much we take for granted everyday. I saw a homeless man with no socks, just crocs, and plastic bags under his feet. Something such as small as a pair of socks could make that man's life significantly better. Giving out food made me realize how hungry homeless people are. Many tried to get extra food, and clothes. I accidentally left a box of milk for a couple of minutes and by the time I came back to see it nearly empty. This made me feel bad for these people, but I am glad that I accidentally left the milk out. We were almost done with the run anyway. All in all it is very rewarding to help the homeless, and it is mutually beneficial to both parties, especially to the homeless of course.

What will you do?

10.9.15 "Let's start at the very beginning. It's a very fine place to start."

10.16  - "Beineinu Friday Nights" (our first one).  Are you coming?  You are coming right?
Details at the bottom.  
But don't skip the Torah (it's just a little Torah).

B'reishit
Genesis 1:1-6:8

"Let's start at the very beginning.  It's a very fine place to start."  These well known lyrics from "The Sound of Music" aren't refering to Torah.  But, that's exactly what's about to happen.  This Shabbat we begin reading the Torah from the very beginning.  We start wtih the story of creation affirming humanity's unique partnership with God.  If you haven't ever read it all the way through, you should.  Put down whatever you are doing.  Google "Genesis 1:1-6:8" and read the entire portion.  

What?  You don't have time right now?  You are busy with something really important?

Well, promise yourself, that you will read it by Sunday evening.  That's doable right?  

If you can't read the entire portion, just read the stories of creation.  That's right.  There is more than one.  There are actually two creation stories.  What's the difference?  Here's a clue; the order of creation is different from story to story. 

God is busy, really busy filling the world with "stuff".  There is heaven and earth.  Water and land.  Sun, moon and stars.  Day and night.  Birds.  Cattle.  Trees.  And so much more.  In fact, God creates so much "stuff" that after only six days of work, God ceases to create FOREVER.  That's right.  God spends six days creating and then leaves it all in our hands.  God puts humanity in charge of EVERYTHING.  That's right.  We are the boss of everything.  We are the "Big Man on Campus".  The Chief.  That's us.  This responsibility and privilege was given to all humanity  God's breath was our first breath.  

God spent six days creating the foundation of everything we would need to carry creation forward.  God put things in motion and since day eight, it's been up to humanity to decide what comes next.

That's the question.  What will be next?  What will each of us do with our personal God breath?  My teacher, Rabbi Levi Lauer, with his hands raised said; "If God has hands today, these are his hands."  Pointing to his own lips, "If God has a mouth.  This is God's mouth."  "If God has a heart.  This is God's heart."  You get the idea.

What will we do with our own personal God breath?  What will we do with all that power? God gave us breath.  God gave us power.  What we choose to do is up to us.  

If God has power, WE are God's power.

Mekor Ha'Chayiim, Source of Life, as we move into the Shabbat, move into the very beginning, may we have the courage to claim our personal God breath, to claim our power.

Shabbat shalom,
Laurie

10.2.15 Global Response

It's happening!  Beineinu - "between us" - we created High Holy Days that were energizing, filled with meaning and joy.  Thank you for putting your whole self in!  That was the beginning.  We have an exciting calendar filled with Shabbat and holiday celebrations, justice work and simply social opportunities for everyone.

Be part of building your community.  Most importantly, come!  Join us often.  Tell your friends and bring them with you.  Share your questions and ideas. Volunteer to host a gathering in your home.  Underwrite a program or support our general operations. Contact Rabbi Laurie for details.  Contributions can be made on our website via paypal or by check.

We look forward to an amazing year ahead "Beineinu".

B'vracha (in blessing),
Laurie and Daphna

Torah!  Torah!  Torah!
I woke up on Wednesday morning at my usual time.  That's whenever Daisy decides she needs to go outside.  (Are you practicing vulnerability?  Daisy wants to know).  We start making our way through the kitchen towards the backyard. One of the perks of living in Harlem.  I am not paying attention.  I have done this morning ritual over 300 times (October 26th will be a year).   The outside light turns on and it catches me by surprise. It's motion sensitive and turns on when we step outside.  I look up and I cannot believe what I am seeing.  I cannot believe what has happened, has actually happened.  Apparently the winds and rains from Tuesday night were so harsh that our entire Sukkah had fallen down.  The entire structure collapsed. 

The only other time this happened was when I was four years old. We had just moved into our new home, in Michigan, and my dad built our Sukkah on the driveway.  It didn't take much to topple this structure.  No rain or wind.  I think we might have been breathing nearby.  My abba, and our whole family built many amazing, beautiful and strong Sukkot over the next two decades. 

Back to now.  I am staring out the window and I don't know how to react.  I have never seen anything like this.  The Sukkah is down.  We walk outside and I still cannot fully absorb what has happened.  The Sukkah seems to have fallen as tenderly as a standing deck of cards.  The sides must have fallen first and then the roof somehow made its way to the ground slowly and gently, still fully in tact.  The corn stalks we used for the "schach"/roof (say that 10 times fast) didn't budge.  It almost looked like it was taking a nap.

I start to panic.  "Tonight is the 'Sukkah Stop'.  People are coming over to sit in the Sukkah, to bless/shake the lulav/etrog."  My panic level rises.  "What am I going to do?"  I would like to say that my initial reaction was as graceful as the Sukkah's falling.  But, I must be honest.  It wasn't.  After a few minutes thought I realized that I was not staring at a collapsed Sukkah (Ok.  I was staring at a collapsed Sukkah.)  I was face to face with the true teaching of Sukkot;  it's all fragile.  The Sukkah, lying there, unable to fulfill it's responsibilities, embodied the deepest layer of the holiday.  Life, love, relationships, faith, they are all fragile.  

We must nurture and nourish these pieces in our lives and honor the moments when they feel fully realized.  We must express gratitude, demonstrating our understanding that these are not "givens" but rather precious gifts.  It's all fragile. 

5:00 o'clock came and so did people.  We sat indoors with a grand view of the fallen Sukkah.  We blessed the lulav and etrog.  We felt grateful.

On Yom Kippur, I spoke about the need for a global response to kindness.  This was in response to a sports commentator I heard a few nights before while watching a Mets Yankees game. There was a lot of discussion around how many innings the Mets pitcher, Matt Harvey could play, having had the surgery several months before.  The commentator was promoting the need for a "global response" to research around the effects and aftermath of the Dr. Frank Jobe surgery, known to all as the Tommy John surgery.   

Really? Really?  A global response?  Really?  The entire world should put effort, energy and resources into studying the long term effects of this surgery?  Really?

I would support advocating for, even demanding a global response to hunger, to poverty, to the refugee crisis, to violence.  There are too many to list.

In an effort to focus my energy on what I can control, I am calling for a global response to kindness. In the face of all that is fragile and all that is out of our control, let's take charge of kindness.  Let's commit to (at least) one intentional act of kindness a day towards those we know and at least one intentional act of kindness towards the "other", the stranger, the one we don't know and/or might not want to know.

Mekor Ha'Chayiim, as we make our way into Shabbat Sukkot, may we be mindful of the fragile pieces in our lives.  May we use this knowledge to nurture ourselves, our relationships and our faith.  May all of this lead to greater kindness.

Check in with yourself.  Which "kivuun"(direction) are you heading towards?  Are you steering towards not needing to be right?  Are you steering towards compassion?  Are you steering towards peace? 

Shabbat shalom u'mevorach - May Shabbat be blessed with wholeness and peace,
Laurie










9.25.15 Higher and Holier

High Holy Days and "Ha'azinu"

Wooh hooh! We did it!  Beineinu completed it's first High Holy Days.  The journey was exhausting and exhilarating! We did it! And we couldn't have done it without all of you! We hope the experience was energizing and meaningful.

We are grateful to everyone who was able to join us.  Your presence, participation, warmth and care made it possible for us to connect with one another, with the self and hopefully something greater than self. 

Thank you to all of our volunteers.  Thank you to the incredible staff that made sure we were comfortable and prepared.  Thank you to our off the charts musicians!

The journey was exhausting and exhilarating!  

Beineinu, we created holy space.

We look forward to many opportunities to gather in the coming year.

B'vracha(in blessing),
Laurie and Daphna

A little Torah:

It's only fitting that this week's Torah portion is "Ha'azinu", which means "Hey all of you people!  Listen up!  Listening was a major focus in our work together over the High Holy Days.  We explored the essential role listening and hearing play in the path towards repentance and forgiveness.  

How do we put ourselves in a position to really listen?  

How do we truly hear our voice and the voice of the other?

This is Moshe's farewell speech to his people.  He has spent his life guiding, supporting, nurturing and loving the Israelites.  Moshe dedicated himself to God and to cultivating a nation.  It is now time for him to say "good-bye".  He wants the full attention of all of the people as he reviews their journey from slavery to freedom.

The journey from slavery to freedom is the path towards repentance and forgiveness.  It's the High Holy Days all over again. (And we thought we were done until next year).  When we engage in a process of true repentance we are accepting responsibility for our actions.  We are holding ourselves accountable.  The High Holy Days gives us permission to ask for forgiveness from others and almost more importantly gives us permission to forgive ourselves.  This leads to freedom.  This leads us to a place of renewal and has the potential to lead us into a place of joy.  When we forgive others we are releasing them from the weight of their wrong doings.  When we forgive ourselves we do the same.

One of the most compelling aspects of Judaism is that we are never asked to be perfect.  We are always asked to try.  We are always expected to do better the next time.  

The work continues throughout the year.  We take the themes of the High Holy Days into the coming year as a way of checking in with ourselves.  Are we on the right track?  Which way are we steering? Are we steering towards kindness and compassion? 

Remember, we are not alone.  Ki anu amecha, "Because we are Your people." We are part of something greater than the self.  We hold each other in tenderness.  We hold each other in kindness.  We hold each other in love. 

Mekor Ha'Chayiim, Source of Life, as we make our way into Shabbat and into the New Year, may we have the strength to continue the process of reflection, repentance and forgiveness.   Let us lead with open hearts and open minds.  May we blessed with meaning and joy.

Shabbat shalom u'mevorach(a peaceful and blessed Shabbat),
Laurie








9.18.15 A little Yom Kippur

Kol Nidre

The opening prayer for Yom Kippur is Kol Nidre/"All of Our Vows".  On behalf of the entire People of Israel, the service leader asks God to nullify all vows from the previous year and forgive all transgressions.  "Let our vows not be considered vows; let our prohibitions not be considered prohibitions; and let our oaths not be considered oaths." 

And God responds favorably.  "I have pardoned in accordance with your words."  It's as simple as that.  We ask and God does.  It's as simple as that.

And...it's never as simple as that.

The prayer is actually repeated 3 times.  The melody intensifies with each repetition.  It is a prayer of yearning and pleading.  It almost sounds as if the service leader is crying, begging God.  The service leader is the bridge between the people and God.  The fate of the entire People of Israel lies in the hands, actually the voice, of one person.  One person, one voice stands between blame and forgiveness, life and death.  The service leader is working hard for all of us.

So what do we need to do prior to the recitation of the prayer?  What should we do for the service leader?  What can we do for God?

What if we turn the words of the prayer onto ourselves?  What if instead of asking God, each of us makes the same request of our own self?  What if each of us forgives our own self?  Can we make ourselves vulnerable enough to stand in the face of our own wrongdoing?  Can we engage our vulnerability as a source of strength (instead of weakness)? This is an opportunity to release ourselves from the weight of past mistakes.  We can forgive ourselves.  We have the power to do so and in a sense we are obligated to in order to enter the new year anew.  Perhaps "Kol Nidre" has God forgiving immediately to enable us to do the same.  If God can "Let it Go", the so should we.

As we make our way to "Kol Nidre", entrusting our fate to our service leader, let each of us take an honest accounting of our vows and our transgressions.  Let each of us honor the neshama/the soul, that is restored to us every morning.  Let each of us demonstrate self compassion and grant ourselves forgiveness. 

May the coming year be filled with forgiveness, kindness and meaning.

G'mar Chatima Tova,
Laurie

9.11.15 "Signed. Sealed. Delivered. I'm Yours."

Reminder regarding High Holy Day services:  WEST END SYNAGOGUE IS LOCATED AT 69th and AMSTERDAM AVE. Looking forward to bringing in the New Year together.

And now for some Torah:

When Stevie Wonder was writing the lyrics to this totally awesome song, while many of his songs reflect a powerful and intense relationship with God, I highly doubt, he was referencing "U-netaneh Tokef".  The prayer, embedded within the Amidah (the Standing Prayer) of the Rosh Hashanah morning service, answering the question "What is the point of these High Holy Days?"

From Rosh Hashanah through Yom Kippur we are engaged in a process of repentance and reflection.  We hope the work we have done will persuade God to write us in the Book of Life.  

We pray:

Let us proclaim the power of this day-
a day that is awe-some and awe-ful.
and inspires highest praise for Your dominion,
for Your throne is a throne of love;
Your reign is a reign of truth.

...On Rosh Hashanah this is written;
on the Fast of Yom Kippur this is sealed:

Who will pass from this world?
Who will be born into it?
Who will live and who will die?
Who will reach the ripeness of age,
who will be taken before their time;
who by fire and who by water;
who by war and who by beast;
who by famine and who by drought;
who by earthquake and who by plague;
who by strangling and who by stoning;
who will rest and will will wonder;
who will be tranquil and who will be troubled;
who will be calm and who tormented;
who will live in poverty and who in prosperity;
who will be low and who will be elevated;

But through return to the right path,
through prayer and righteousness
we can transcend the harshness of the decree.

Every year we recite these same words creating an image of God deciding our fate. "Did I repent hard enough?  Honestly enough?  Enough so that God will grant me another year of life?"

Really?


Really?


Really?

It's an incredibly disturbing, challenging, and in many ways, absolutely absurd image.

I don't know exactly how the "Book of Life" works but I'm fairly certain, in fact, I would lean towards very certain that it ISN'T how it was just described above earlier.  God is NOT sitting on a throne, looking down, judging whether or not my self reflection and my repentance are "good" enough, worthy enough to result in my be written in the big bad book of life.  Too many good people have died and too many wicked have continued to live.  It is literally impossible to take this prayer literally.

And, that doesn't take away from its "awe-some" and "awe-full" ness.

The items listed can be put into many categories - including; humans are the cause  and something larger than humans is the cause.  Perhaps God?  Nature?  Energy?  Something not human.

People are born and people die.  Some people live a long time and some lives are cut way too short.  There are earthquakes, drought, and fires.

And then there are the things humans cause.  We speak nastily about someone.  We bully.  We are impatient to the point where we diminish.  We are jealous.  We steal.  We are silent.  We hurt. We are selfish. These actions and their impact are not meant to be resolved with God.  Matters between people need to be resolved by people.  If I have harmed someone, I need to figure out how to make up for the pain and suffering I have caused. If someone has harmed me, I need to find a way to forgive and move forward.

We also love.  We show compassion.  We help those in distress.  We are respectful.  We offer dignity.  We compliment.  We share.  We elevate.  We speak out.  We create change.  We make room.  We hope.

What will we choose in the coming year?  What qualities will guide our actions?  What will we do in this life?  Who will be brought low and who will be raised up by our hands?

It would be easy to put in the hands of God.  Then we are free from responsibility and blame.  Are we ready to accept the privilege and the responsibility of being in charge of "signing", "sealing" and "delivering" our own selves?

May you be blessed with compassion.
May you be blessing with meaning.
May you be blessed with peace.

Wishing everyone a Shabbat shalom and a "Shana tova u'mevorach" - a good and blessed year.

Laurie


9.3.15 BE KIND

be kind

be kind

be kind

shabbat shalom

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