2.19.16 Eyes Open

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This past week I had the privilege of attending the Achinoam Nini concert at the Skirball Center. Achinoam, was born in America to Israeli parents.  She grew up in Brooklyn and at the age of 15 decided to move on her own to Israel.  She is a renowned artist who has sung all over the world, including the Vatican (8 times). Her lyrics are in Hebrew and English. She often takes Israeli poetry and sets it to music.  Achinoam is married and has 3 children. GOOGLE her.  

I also had the privilege of attending a talk at the 92nd StY, by journalist, author, and creator of the very popular sitcom "Arab Labor", Sayed Kashua.  Sayed is an Israeli-Palestinian.  He decided to leave Israel with his wife and 3 children and is currently teaching at the University of Illinois.  The decision to leave was very difficult and very painful.  He doesn't know when or if he will return.  His new book, "NATIVE", is a collection of his columns from Haaretz newspaper.  GOOGLE him.

Achinoam and Sayed were raised under completely different circumstances.  Achinoam grew up in the world of American access and privilege. When she moved to Israel, she experienced the same access and privilege afforded to all Jews.  Sayed grew up in a world where equality was not a given, where human rights weren't something one could just assume.   Sayed was the only Arab in his school.  He was constantly bullied by Jews and Arabs who didn't support the decision to attend a Jewish school.  

Both expressed frustration, anger and heartbreak towards the current crisis* in Israel. Worried that things will continue to get worse. Both talked about the importance of inclusion.  They promoted opening our eyes to learn about the other, to accept the other and to embrace the other. 

I can't think of a more important teaching as we move into Shabbat.  Let us all take a moment to really recognize the other.  Let us all do something, one thing to engage the other with kindness and respect.  

Shabbat shalom,
Laurie

*Americans often use the word "situation" but that seems too mild.

2.12.16 STILL IN OUR HANDS

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Parshat Terumah

Exodus 25:1-27:19


The portion opens with:  

1"The Lord spoke to Moses saying: אוַיְדַבֵּ֥ר יְהֹוָ֖ה אֶל־משֶׁ֥ה לֵּאמֹֽר:
2"Speak to the children of Israel, and have them take for Me an offering; from every person whose heart inspires him to generosity, you shall take My offering. בדַּבֵּר֙ אֶל־בְּנֵ֣י יִשְׂרָאֵ֔ל וְיִקְחוּ־לִ֖י תְּרוּמָ֑ה מֵאֵ֤ת כָּל־אִישׁ֙ אֲשֶׁ֣ר יִדְּבֶ֣נּוּ לִבּ֔וֹ תִּקְח֖וּ אֶת־תְּרֽוּמָתִֽי:
3And this is the offering that you shall take from them: gold, silver, and copper; גוְזֹאת֙ הַתְּרוּמָ֔ה אֲשֶׁ֥ר תִּקְח֖וּ מֵֽאִתָּ֑ם זָהָ֥ב וָכֶ֖סֶף וּנְחֽשֶׁת:


and continues to outline in detail what should be brought.  There is an immediate tension; on the one hand, God says (and I'm paraphrasing):  "Hey Mosh, tell the people to bring me gifts - but only if they want to."  And then God says (and I'm paraphrasing again):  "And here's all the very specific stuff they should bring, different colored thread, animal skins and precious metals just as a start."

Why?  Why?  Why?  And in Hebrew, we would say "Lamah?"  

Why does God begin with what seems to be a pretty clear statement that only the people who are compelled to bring gifts should bring gifts and then immediately follow that statement with a long list of specific gifts these "heart inspired" people should bring? Remember that HUGE experiment God is putting into motion - the one where ONE GOD and ONE PEOPLE establish an eternal covenant (a covenantal relationship if you will)? This section of the Torah marks the formal transition from Polytheism to what will be termed Monotheism forever.  This section of the Torah describes the shift from God as "outstretched arm" and "spoon feeder"(as described in the first story of Creation) to God as the "One who dwells within."  The "One who walks alongside."  In last week's Torah portion, God gave the Torah to the Israelites.  This action established the Israelites as God's only people and in turn, Adonai as the only God of the Israelites.  Last week, IT was put into our hands.  God gave each of us the capacity to develop the wisdom and skill necessary to build the world we want to live in.  Adonai promises to reside within each of us - FOREVER - as we tap into our free will and make choices that will either elevate or diminish, help or harm, create or destroy.  

God does all of this knowing that it will take a long time (a very very very long time) for humanity to appreciate and value the tremendous gift of having IT in our hands.  God knows the Israelites cannot move from the mindset of a slave to that of a free man in a split second (or in one splitting of a sea).  It will take time, a lot of time for the Israelites and the nation that becomes the Jewish People to honor and safeguard the awesome gifts which has been bestowed upon us; the gift of being able to create the world as it should be.

As a result, in this week's Torah portion, God first wants to establish the fact that despite having given us a whole lot of laws, the first thing God gave us is FREE WILL. This remains more powerful and more important than any laws.  Activating our free will, engaging our ability to choose is the most important part of being human.  We received this through God's breath and demonstrate ability and capacity through ours.  However, knowing that it will take a long long time to inhabit the mind of a free person, God offers a multitude of specific offerings.  This eliminates any worry of getting it wrong or messing up.  We all know how stressful it can be when we are just buying a gift for a loved one.  Can you imagine the anxiety experienced over buying a gift for God?  By providing a detailed list of what to give, God is meeting the people where they are at and moving them into the first stage of owning their free will. First, each person gets to determine if his/her heart is inspired to bring.  Then, she/he can decide which of the items, how many of the items she/he wants to offer.  It's a win win. God receives and the people are choosing.  

In fact, this might be the very first time the Israelites are making a choice.  "Baruch Atah Adonai, Eloheinu, Melech ha'olam, Shehechiyanu v'kiyimanu, v'higiyany lazman hazeh." - My translation:  Blessed One, You are Adonai.  We are grateful for the life we have been given, for acknowledging the effort required to sustain this incredible gift called life, and for the ability to get ourselves to this exact moment in time.  Amen!  Amen!  Amen!

This first choice is the foundation for all of the individual and collective choices that have happened since.  Can you imagine?  What if the Israelites would have decided they didn't want to choose?  What if they would have decided or wouldn't have been able to engage their free will, their power to choose?  What if God would have decided NOT to put IT in our hands?  Afterall, God had to have also known that we wouldn't get it right some of the time.  But, God did choose to put IT in our hands.  We have the power and the ability to create the world as it should be.  Let's!

Mekor Ha'Chayiim, Source of Life, we are grateful for all of the Shehechiyanu moments past, present and future.  May we never take this precious gift of life and the awesome power that free will enables, for granted.  

Shabbat shalom,
Laurie


2.5.16 "With These Hands"

Parashat Mishpatim

Book of Shemot/Exodus 21:1–24:18


Last week was a huge turning point in the story of the development of Monotheism and in the development of the relationship between Adonai and the Israelites.  On the advice of his father-in-law Yitro, Moshe put judges in place to handle all of the matters/complaints/issues that would arise among the Israelites.  Moshe establishes a structure for handling conflict and resolving disputes.  He put the building of community in the hands of the people.

At the same time Adonai gave the Israelites the first iteration of the Torah thus putting the building of community into the hands of the people.  

The shift is HUGE.  Prior to these two events, God and Moshe do everything for the people.  They anticipate and take care of all of their needs.  The Israelites are not involved in any of the decision making or any of the implementation.  Everything is done to them.  This was appropriate while the Israelites were enslaved in Egypt but this would not be sustainable nor appropriate for a free people.  

Both, Adonai and Moshe make the shift simultaneously.  They both appreciate the need to begin putting "IT" into the hands of the people.  Whatever this "one God one people" situation will be, will be up to the people.  Whatever the structure of leadership for this people will be, will be up to the people.

We enter Parashat Mishpatim with Adonai continuing to give laws around damages and the treatment of indentured servants.  Adonai is not letting go of the "if...then" nature of the relationship with the Israelites.  Adonai describes wonderful outcomes "IF" the Israelites abide by all of the laws and obligations.  Adonai also describes the opposite "IF" the Israelites choose not to abide by the laws.  "IT" is in their hands.  They have a choice. Afterall, if we look back into parashat B'reishit (the very first portion in the Torah) we are reminded of the fact that when Adonai created human beings, Adonai included free will. The Israelites are not robots or puppets.  They are free thinking individuals.  Granted, it's going to take a little time for them to embrace this new mode after being enslaved for centuries.

How do the Israelites feel about all of these changes?  Their response is na-aseh v'nishmah/"We will do and then we will comprehend."  They seem willing to jump right into this new existence.  The response conveys a certain lightness and level of trust.  It's exciting.  

What will they do with all of the freedom?  How will they make decisions about which laws they will follow and which they will dismiss?  Will this be a communal decision or individual?

"IT" is still in our hands.  And it seems as though we are still in the same position as the Israelites who are experiencing freedom for the first time.  How do we make decisions about what we do? What is our comfort level around "na-seh v'nishma"?  Are you we ok plunging into a task or embracing a norm without having the full understanding?  Are we overly concerned with figuring out all of the details and knowing the outcome?  What are the possibilities that come with being open to engaging in a practice without knowing why or what will be the result?  Wouldn't it be fun to see?

Mekor Ha'Chayiim, Source of Life, as we move into Shabbat, may we have courage to release ourselves from knowing and understanding.  May we take advantage of the opportunity to live in the doing.

Shabbat shalom,
Laurie

1.29.16 Rabbi David Kalb on Yitro

This week's Little Torah is by Rabbi David Kalb.  I hope his insights bring meaning.  My  comments/reactions are in purple. Shabbat shalom, Laurie

This week’s Parsha, Parshat Yitro tells the story of Matan Torah (the receiving of the Torah) at Mount Sinai. What I have always found fascinating about Parshat Yitro is the lead up to Matan Torah. Before God gives the Torah to B’nai Yisrael (The Israelites) in Chapter 19 of Shemot (Exodus) there are clouds, the Shofar, thunder, lighting, smoke, fire and the mountain shudders. Why? What is going on here? Why the special effects? Why does God give this prelude to Matan Torah? Why does God feel that it is necessary to have clouds, the Shofar, thunder, lighting, smoke, fire and the mountain shuddering, before the giving of the Torah?
I am sure that many people look at this section of the Torah and automatically assume that the reason for the special effects is to make the people have Yirat Hashem, (a fear of God). That would be the case, if the experience at Mount Sinai was purely for the purpose of giving of the Torah. However, the experience at Sinai was also for God to reveal God’s self to the Jewish people, for the people to have a more direct spiritual interaction with God. [This is a defining moment in the establishment of the covenant between God and the Israelites.  This is THE moment when God says "we are in this for the long (very long) haul." (Or something to that effect.)  So IT betta be big!
The commentator Rashi on Shemot 19:17 puts it in a beautiful way when he describes the experience between the Jewish people and God at Mount Sinai by stating that, “the Shechinah (the presence of God) went forth to meet them (the people) like a Chatan, (a groom), who goes forth to meet the Kalah, (the bride).” It was not simply an experience of God teaching a class on Jewish law. Therefore, the question is, if the purpose of the experience at Mount Sinai was for the Jewish people to interact with God in this very direct way like the Chatan and the Kalah, then why would God precede Matan Torah with clouds, the Shofar, thunder, lighting, smoke, fire and the mountain shuddering?
Imagine that you are getting married. You are under the Chupah (the marital canopy) with your Bashert (soultmate) and the Rabbi pulls out a Shofar and lets out a Tekiah (one loud long blast) and then a cloud descends with thunder and lightning accompanied by smoke, fire and the shuddering of the floor, where the two of you are standing. This does not sound like the most intimate experience in the world. Yet this is the experience of Mt Sinai. I would have thought that these types of sights and sounds would be a hindrance during the divine revelation. During this intimate moment between God and B’nai Yisrael, it could distract people from this spiritual experience.  [What if we actually pretended that we were marrying God every time we were face to face with Torah?  What if we behaved as if God were our life partner?  What if we engaged the other as if they were married to God?]
Therefore, we need to ask what is happening here. When people are in the midst of a thunder and lighting storm, they have to make a huge effort to hear and see what is going on. If you add the sound of the Shofar, clouds, smoke, fire and a shuddering mountain into the mix you need to struggle even harder to understand what is happening. It is my belief that this was precisely God’s intention in having this atmosphere to accompany the experience of God revealing God’s self at Sinai. God wanted to make the experience complex for B’nai Yisrael. It is and should be complex to understand God. Keep in mind that God is infinite and we as human beings are finite. Therefore, trying to have a relationship with God who is infinite is, to say the least, somewhat challenging.
However, there is something else. With such distracting weather conditions and sounds it is possible that each person who was at Mt. Sinai saw the experience in a different way. This is not only true of the interaction with God at Sinai, but anytime we interact or try to gain a better understanding of God.  [This is the part that resonates most with me.  Everyone is entitled to experience and understand God in whatever is meaningful to them.  Especially if we are to understand the experience as something intimate.  ]
This point can be illustrated by a story. There was once a school for blind children that went on a class trip to a farm where they let children feed and play with the animals. There were three blind children who were accompanied by one teacher with sight. They all went over to the pen where they kept the goats. After the children played with the goats for a while, the teacher said, “What is a goat like?” The first child said “It’s soft and furry.” The second child said, “No it’s hard and scratchy.” The third child said, “No it’s wet and slippery.” How do we account for the children having such different experiences with the goat? The first child pet the goat’s fur, the second child touched the goat’s horns, and the third child was licked by the goat all over their face. Each of the children gave a correct answer, but it was a partially correct answer. The same is true in the way we experience God. We as finite human beings can only have partial answers about God. Therefore, we should try to collect as many partial answers as possible. It is important that spiritual communities give their members different views on understanding God. Communities that try to limit the way people look at God limit the spiritual growth of their members and worse yet, they limit God.

1.22 From the Narrow Place


Parashat B'shalach
Exodus 13:17-17:16

This is THE WEEK.  This is the first moment of full freedom for the Israelites (who are heading towards becoming a nation).  In this week's Torah portion, the Israelites cross the opened sea and walk from slavery in Egypt to freedom in the wilderness.
You know the scene.  Moses is standing at the shore along with 600,000 Israelites who are in a state of great panic because they know the Egyptian soldiers are chasing after them to bring them back to re-enslave them.  The waters are daunting, terrifying actually. Everyone is wondering how will they cross?  And that's where God comes into the narrative.  Once again, just like a super hero, God swoops in and saves the day.  God tells Moshe to place his staff into the water.   The waters split and create two sturdy walls leaving a clear path to the other side.  All the Israelites have to do is walk across and they will be free.

Egypt, in Hebrew "Mitzrayiim" also means "the narrow place".  The Israelites are leaving the narrow life of slavery.  A life that is very constrictive emotionally, physically and intellectually.  Their existence has been controlled, dictated by Pharoah and pre-determined for over 10 generations.  And now, all they need to do is walk across and be free.  

Of course it isn't that simple.

In fact it's the opposite.  The mind, body and soul have to be completely retrained and reprogrammed.

In order for full freedom to be achieved the Israelites must leave the narrow place and enter into the expansiveness of the wilderness.  The narrow place is restrictive but it is known, it's safe and reliable.  The wilderness is the opposite.  Freedom is wild, unchartered territory.  It is totally unknown and filled with all kinds of possibilities and outcomes.  Freedom requires risk and failure.  Freedom includes being vulnerable.  In order to be fully free, one has to unpack the narrow place and leave it completely.

The Israelites are human and full freedom is not achieved quickly.  It's a very long process and a deep struggle. 

Their story is a metaphor for all of us.  We read this portion now but Passover isn't for another three months.  Many wonder why the reading of the portion isn't aligned with when the holiday falls.  I believe this is because we need time to prepare to celebrate freedom.  We need to unpack our own personal narrow places and make our way to the wilderness, the expansiveness of freedom.  A true celebration of freedom for our people and for ourselves, can only happen when we are willing to face our limitations and our personal constrictions.  

We have three months to examine where we are narrow in mind, body and soul.  This examination can enable us to embrace the freedom and wilderness that lies ahead.  This examination can provide the opportunity for growth and change.  It can open up an array of possibilities and leave us with a sense of purpose and meaning.

It's up to us.  It's in our hands.  What will we choose?  Will we remain safe and protected in our narrowness?  Will we take the risks required in achieving freedom?

Mekor Ha'Chayiim, Source of Life, as we move into Shabbat, may we be nourished by our inner strength.  May we use this strength to face our narrow places thus allowing us to move into the opportunities that being free can offer.

Shabbat shalom,
Laurie






1.15.16 What if it really happened?

Summary of parashat "Bo" from Chabad.org:

The last three of the Ten Plagues are visited on Egypt: a swarm of locusts devours all the crops and greenery; a thick, palpable darkness envelops the land; and all the firstborn of Egypt are killed at the stroke of midnight of the 15th of the month of Nissan.

God commands the first mitzvah to be given to the people of Israel: to establish a calendar based on the monthly rebirth of the moon. The Israelites are also instructed to bring a “Passover offering” to God: a lamb or kid is to be slaughtered, and its blood sprinkled on the doorposts and lintel of every Israelite home, so that God should pass over these homes when He comes to kill the Egyptian firstborn. The roasted meat of the offering is to be eaten that night together with matzah (unleavened bread) and bitter herbs.

The death of the firstborn finally breaks Pharaoh’s resistance, and he literally drives the children of Israel from his land. So hastily do they depart that there is no time for their dough to rise, and the only provisions they take along are unleavened. Before they go, they ask their Egyptian neighbors for gold, silver and garments—fulfilling the promise made to Abraham that his descendants would leave Egypt with great wealth.

The children of Israel are commanded to consecrate all firstborn, and to observe the anniversary of the Exodus each year by removing all leaven from their possession for seven days, eating matzah, and telling the story of their redemption to their children. They are also commanded to wear tefillin on the arm and head as a reminder of the Exodus and their resultant commitment to God.
SO WHAT SHOULD WE DO WITH ALL OF THIS?
The Torah portions from the past several weeks reveal a God who acts from a place of power and violence.  God is harsh and unrelenting.  This image of God seems to lack any compassion or empathy.  This portrayal of God excludes any acknowledgement that the Egyptian people are innocent bystanders, subject to the whims of their Pharoah and God.  

One way to reconcile this, is by taking the events as metaphor.  If they really didn't happen then they aren't real and nobody really got hurt and nobody really died (children didn't die).  But, the greater challenge is in accepting the possibility that something like this did happen.  And if that is the case, how do we accept and embrace a belief and a relationship in a God who would act this way?

It is hard.  It is very hard.

Without condoning harm to others, as a way of obtaining freedom, we might look at the larger picture.  All of this is taking place during a time when a most radical move is happening and God is the one instigating it all.

Remember, the Torah is the story of the creation of monotheism.  God is taking a humungous risk breaking away from the group of gods to become one God with one people.  This risk requires tremendous strength and a significant demonstration of extreme power.  God has to be the most powerful, the most awesome, the greatest God that every "lived".

God never implements plagues like this again in the Torah.  Over time God has ceased to insert God's power, ceased to intervene in human conflict and struggle (even though there are many times I wish God would). Maybe the 10 plagues and the horror they brought onto the lives of so many Egyptians is the necessary cost of freedom at that time?

Unfortunately, even though God is no longer intervening in human conflict, humans continue to sacrifice innocent lives in the name of their cause.  I wish this weren't the case.

May we be committed to never taking our freedom or the cost of our freedom for granted.  We do this by standing up and fighting for the freedom of all who continue to be enslaved.

In blessing and friendship, Shabbat Shalom,
Laurie

1.8.16 A LITTLE EXODUS

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

As we begin 2016 and the Book of Exodus, we are reminded of the connection between past and present and the impact both have on the future.

Exodus tells the story of our coming into freedom, moving from slavery into liberation.  It is the foundational narrative of our people.  It is THE teaching for all generations; because we were strangers, in a strange land, we must care for the stranger. Because we were slaves and are now free, we are responsible for the freedom and liberation of all who are enslaved.

The Book of Exodus reminds us of our current access and capacity to impact what happens in the world around us.  What will we do with this access and capacity?

May 2016 be filled with compassion, kindness and a commitment to action.

Shabbat shalom,
Laurie

A poem for the new year;

Remember

Joy Harjo, 1951

Remember the sky that you were born under,
know each of the star’s stories.
Remember the moon, know who she is.
Remember the sun’s birth at dawn, that is the
strongest point of time. Remember sundown
and the giving away to night.
Remember your birth, how your mother struggled
to give you form and breath. You are evidence of
her life, and her mother’s, and hers.
Remember your father. He is your life, also.
Remember the earth whose skin you are:
red earth, black earth, yellow earth, white earth
brown earth, we are earth.
Remember the plants, trees, animal life who all have their
tribes, their families, their histories, too. Talk to them,
listen to them. They are alive poems.
Remember the wind. Remember her voice. She knows the
origin of this universe.
Remember you are all people and all people
are you.

Remember you are this universe and this
universe is you.
Remember all is in motion, is growing, is you.
Remember language comes from this.
Remember the dance language is, that life is.
Remember.